Archive for January, 2011

Be humble….

Those were the two words my god-father said to me repeatedly tonight…. and they’re sinking in…

It all started with me having to park my Merc for night and day and take the little NP200 for it’s window tinting and radio fitment… It carried on to me sitting in nearly 90 minutes of traffic at 5:45am!!!!!! – NOT IMPRESSED! This was first sign where I started to miss the automatic, then there was the lack of sound… and no air-con… oh gosh, and the smell of leather was missing too!!! (Yes, call me a pretentious little prat)

The day happened, the rain came and the evening arose….

Got back to the house safe enough – still missing the leather, aircon, the auto and cruise control and we all went off for a quick pizza….

On the road back…. I had to emphasize how I loved my car… (Dad said, “Be humble”)… I went back to saying how I missed the control and comfort, (Dad said, “Just be humble”)  and his words sunk in deep enough for me think about that all the way home and to get online and write about it…..

These past weeks haven’t been the easiest for me…. Although I have pretty much accepted the passing of Jesse, I still think about her every day and night and shed the odd tear when no one is looking…

“Be humble” has sped me on to realising how my I do take for granted in my life… to take the step back and look at every moment I’m living, every breath I’m taking and just be humble, and give thanks… Before I complain and moan, look at my immediate situation and just… “BE HUMBLE”….

It’s a serious change of perception, but an inviting one all the same….

As I’m sure all you have noticed, there’s a picture at the top of all my posts… and they’re all relevant to how I’m feeling… The one above of Jesse and I just spoke out to me tonight with the words:

Smile from ear to ear…… Love unconditionally … and be Humble…

January 17, 2011 Posted Under: Things Irvin Says   Read More

2011 is taking shape

No joke on this one… 2011 started off rather crappy for me….

Amidst losing my girl…. work was crap… tensions were high… Enzo has been depressed and the rest of  my life has been a HUGE question mark….

Re-adjust Irvin…. and FAST!

I’m glad that I had Enzo with me… and he has been begging for attention in any form….

This was the week that all the changes happened….

1. Enzo’s training was confirmed… and he isn’t starting off in puppy class.. he is going straight to beginner’s (which is a step above puppy)

January 8, 2011 Posted Under: Things Irvin Says   Read More

The control….

So 2010 happened… and 2011 is here now…

Strange how we don’t have any control over the days… the weeks … months and years… and too have control over life…

I have said cherio to my Jesse, understanding it was her time to leave and will be facing 2011 without her…  this which I didn’t have control over either…..

Today was day 3 without her…. yes  - I’m carrying on about my girl…(hell it’s still wrenching my heart guys – so I’m allow to…) but I never thought my Enzo would step up to standards and so quickly as well… I took my little boy out to the dam this afternoon – he was so well behaved…. subdued and very ‘pa-vas’….. but a knight in shining armour, greeting everyone and touching souls…. (A touch clearly passed down from my girl…)

It too was incredible seeing his reaction to the change in the pack-leader…. Jesse wasn’t there… it was Irvin who was in charge now… ((footnote – Enzo is lying next to me farting to the high heavens!!!!) -is this payback or something????

Sitting at the dam this afternoon I realised from these past few days that we have very little control over life… yet we throw out judgement endlessly in our chosen forms…

As humans we believe we are superior to all beings… Yet must realise and know that we are indeed apart of the food-chain – and will soon go to the earth as all others….

January 3, 2011 Posted Under: Things Irvin Says   Read More